So what did I decide then? A sip? A big drink? It was very tempting and I fought with myself about it for a while. But starving is an aweful feeling. I had to think about the future, right? She would get bigger if I fed her, right? She would kind of be an unlimited flow of blood, but I had to time it right. Can't take too much. But when I start to drink, it's so hard to stop!

And so I sipped. A little sip. Ok, it was a gulp. I think I almost killed her. She got pretty white. I HAD to stop. It was hard.

Should I then give her a name? Should I call her something?

I like the name Rachel.

Her name will be Rachel.